Ahoy!, what?

Disclaimer- i'm kind of pissed.

Well, i'm under a debt of 4000 bucks, (thanks to my want of luxury travel)more details of which i shan't reveal.
I have been spending a lot on shoes of late, even though iv been wanting to go get a guitar for myself and maybe a kitten.(yes, i can be THAT mad?)
Not that my shoes are worth the guitar(or the kitten), but they have this saying right? umm.. er..aa..m.. boond boond se banta hai sagar? something-oh bte, kolkata's truly the sagar state rite now.Raining and stuff.
Nevermind.

Im extremely perturbed with how i can manage to while my time away sitting in front of the compute reading about Bluefrog studios , marquez, Ht blogs(btw they are amazing), michael modhusudan dooto, organic food, new japanese short movie and brainstorming on how to stalk people you know(??) on facebook.
Interning here is good idea(HT), but managing a Harry potter, a wannabe Schizo, a jerk-off, more than one perverts and a weird nemesis to Rani mukherjee, all at once, and in a one day framework, is SO TIRING?

My eating habits are sad. I eat in the morning, eat in the afternoon and eat at night.

I have been screwing up people(well, not yet been there literally, seems fun though).I fight, and then I make up, well,i fight, and then I make up.So basically, i have lost that o-my-god-im-so-cool-ill-hangout-with-my-idiotic-self-on-my-own.
I guess i need people to make the perfect evening/afternoons for me now, basically, iv just gotten selfish.
or maybe realised that iv always been that?

I want to party.But my funds look poor (both money and people, since I HAVE SCREWED up both.)My fancy internship can allow me that , but a jerkie is not getting off my head,and i feel indebted to take that person along with me, but im not really that interested, so then..why?
Ok, WTF nevermind.


I have a few more things to write here, but im kind of wondering if my literary capabilities have extinguished for now.

Oh,Ofcourse there is a lot more to write on.
Im not feeling better, yet!!