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Ok,
MY HEAD IS VERY CLUTTERED, AND I HAVE NO REAL ANYONE TO SPEAK TO.(as usual)


I will write to you.


1)I fought with my grandma again today morning.i want to mend things, and im unable to.Im trying hard to be this matured woman, im failing, each day. Can you help ? Please? I want to normalise life at home.Please help.i love her.DAMMIT.
2)i dont want dadu to die before my masters finishes.im selfish?yes.I dont want to give up on 2 yrs of blood and sweat. does that mean i dont love him? I want to see him alive too.
3)i dont know if i like delhi or kolkata.If i want to stay in delhi or kolkata.i dont know where i belong to.Can i be told?
4)I dont understand pb. is he the right person? why cant i be loved by this one person? can i be answered?
5)i want to turn 30, right now.RIGHT NOW. i will know how to deal with things in a better manner.
i want to age, mentally?